As you might have noticed in my last few entries, the past weeks have been pretty eventful! This week, we've accomplished a couple more requirements for our wedding - had our application for marriage license authenticated by the consul and sent back to the Philippines, and our brief interview with the priest at our local parish for the Certificate of Freedom to Marry (this is an extra requirement for couples who live outside of the Philippines but are getting married there). I noticed how I've become such a softy nowadays, especially when during the interview I was trying hard not to tear up when the priest asked us those questions that are going to be asked again in the actual rite of marriage. So from the looks of it, I am probably in dire need of some waterproof makeup! :p
Now that our wedding is just a few weeks away, I'm trying to spend more time to let that thought sink in, and think about what this event means to us. Since Raymund and I have already lived under the same roof, some people would (or did) say there's not much difference at all. But there is. For us, this wedding is not a formality, not an event that would make people stop judging us for living together, and definitely not a big production. It is when we finally receive the sacrament of marriage, something we wanted for so long but didn't get the chance to do sooner, because we want to be able to share it with our families and friends.
Lately, I've been praying out loud while Raymund holds my hand. We do it so I can think more on what I want to pray about as well as for Raymund to hear my thoughts. One thing I pray for is to not get caught up with the wedding preparations, the frivolities and superficial stuff, but to concentrate more on the excitement of finally receiving the blessings of marriage. Funny because I had this thought when we got engaged that I might be the Bridezilla type or the DIY kind of bride. :D I would have loved to do some DIY stuff but don't really have the time. Maybe when we go home in December I might get to do some. :) But what I would love more in the remaining weeks leading up to the wedding is to be able to have more time to talk over tea, contemplate, and spend quiet times at the adoration chapel, like what I used to do when I was back home.
I often find myself thinking about what I want to tell Raymund on our wedding day, my vow, and what I want our families and friends to know about him. I haven't written anything down yet, but I would like to revisit my keepsake book where I used to write about him (and which my aunt had accidentally read once! Yikes!) to get some inspiration. :D There was a day in 2001 that I can vividly remember, we were on the phone talking about if we had a chance to get married then, hypothetically (or not??), would we say yes - and of course we both did. And in a few weeks, it will finally come true. :) It is indeed some sorta fairytale. :') Note to self: waterproof makeup!!
On a totally different note, since it's quite gloomy because of the rain, I am craving for hot chocolate (like this).
But since I banned myself from eating or drinking chocolate, I will just wait for some warm dinner takeout from Raymund. Actually, I miss my ultimate Stanford comfort food (which I would eat while skype-dating), but am extremely happy the LDR phase is over. :)
Have a nice weekend!
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